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Today, we have our last appointment before the big day. It should just be a routine appointment, and my doctor will be going over all the info I need before the c-section. I am still having a really hard time believing we're this close. I mean, we're having a baby NEXT WEEK! Yikes. I feel so normal and I think that is the part of the problem. I'm not nearly as uncomfortable as I feel like I should be. I am sleeping pretty well, aside from getting up to pee four or five times a night. I'm still going to the gym. I have been going to the pool a few times a week too. It just feels like our life is going on, and I just happen to be 9 months pregnant. Which is exactly what I hoped it would be like for me this time.

We're pretty sure this will be our last baby, but after having such a great pregnancy, I can't really bring myself to think that this is it. The other day in the car, Neil said "This is a really big deal - this is the last time we'll ever do this." And, it was the first time I really thought about it in that way. I don't know how I will feel next week about all this, but I have really enjoyed this time. I have been very in tune with my body and I feel strong and healthy and much more in control of the whole situation than I did last time. So, coming off this relatively easy road, I am trying to mentally prepare myself for the rough ride ahead. Neil and I both feel we are prepared as far as having her room and the gear and everything ready for her arrival, but that we both are dangerously unprepared for the reality of having a newborn. Like we are both in denial and in the back of our minds think our life will somehow continue as it is now - wonderfully calm and fairly predictable. Even though we have been through it before, we have never been through it this time - with this baby - under these circumstances, and having Hayden to think of too. So, all I know is that I don't know. I don't know how it will be, but I know we will get through it. And though we may not feel like it for a few months, we are going to love it.